Tuesday, August 31, 2010

nothing to blame. neither who it is.

倔强说不痛,假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头,决不让眼泪往下流
别怪自己
之前的离开
与我们都无关

那不是你的问题
你要知道

那也不是我愿意的
这我清楚知道

我是不是该习惯就好/
然后就把所有的事都拒得千里之外
在围一堵墙来保护

原来,
地狱的感觉
就是如此的不堪

想你已成一种瘾了
现在要我怎么戒呢?

我可以没有他,过得很快乐
BUT
你要我快乐却不再和你分享
我只能说
对不起,我办不到

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听好了,我不希望还有下次;
我的心是一个站牌,
写着等待
=)


**叫我傻婆的,
我不想我自己的事印象到你,
我不想因为酱我对你发脾气
我知道你明白的

但还是说声
Im sorry.

Monday, August 30, 2010

其实 我很想你

是给你的,cendol主人。

believe the lie.

Fuck!

I never once be a 100% child.

Im never be the 100% daughter no matter how hard i work for it.
compare to my sisters and brother, they will be much more easier.
Forever I kena kao kao.
for them, they will know Ill be there to protect them.

I never once be a 100% friend,
Ya right. I betrayed our conversation to her and you thought that they hate you for now on.
No, they didnt.
I never knew I shared something to her and caused me losing my best friend.
The past we go through,
everytime i thought of, it always make me cry
everytime i see our photos, the action the attitude we used to do, It make me wanna cry.
Do you still remember, the pear that we simply drop dowm fram a bus and bought from the fruit stall?
Do you remember the green house that we used to passby to go for her farewell party?

I never once be a 100% pro pre,
I never solve the problem nicely.
Mistake from me. careless-ness from me.
I didnt expect it brings you so much of tears the day i left.
And do you know mine?
You will never get to know.
I will never tell

The reason that will never be say.
The hard decision that will never be describe.
The way the tears fall will never be tell.

I understand it will be the last greet,
Its okay. I think i understand.
You said never tell you bye.
Do you ever think that Im willing to?
Ya right.

Texting me that,


Dont try to find me if you cant find me.


NOT BAD.



This is God's plan, perhaps.
Deep in the heart, I know you will never leave.
Deep in my heart, I know I will always heart you.





really, you're talented
to make me insane,
make my heart in pieces,
make my tears fall like no one see.




You said you're afraid to talk to me like we used to talk last time.
So do me.

Its so scary if i knew I had disturbed you.
Its not easy to carry out my courage to apologise to you.
It feels bad when we were silene in our conversaiton.

Im not putting the blame on who. Just Im not a 100% ones.


fuckmylife!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

STOP

我不想继续这样

I dont want you to be my everyhing when Im just a nothing.
I dont want myself to be so nervous whenever I see something about you.
I dont want to laugh, to cry like a mad when I receive your text.
I dont want to get hurt when i saw your so-called status that always appear in my home page.

I take my initiative, that I dont used to. ==
what else you expect from me?

YOu driving me insane !

Sunday, August 22, 2010

backpacking ;D




嗯,
对了


我要去背包旅行
backpacking :)


我要感受一下nature
感受一下离开这里


如果你能明白
那该多好阿
我会得空没事做,
叫你好好照顾自己吗?

反正我都交待了
答不答应已是次次了

阿哈
我知道了

this scenery makes me wanna cry.


TODAY ,
I will make everything not a matter anymore.

So that,

TOMORROW,
It will be a new day.


I was walking on my own path hardly,
I moved on by my own,
Just like that,
Dont give me the U-turn,
I dont need it,
I dont want it,
I dont want to see it!

一切都会变成 无所谓

Friday, August 20, 2010

I know ;)

我知道你在哭,或许你选择去躲着
又或者是微微的笑着,我真的看见了
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我知道你在哭,或许你总是笑笑的
但我知道你心里面 有种不舍 是感动的 我看见了
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Ya right. I cant emo in the school.
Too much of tears within this week :)
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HEY,
My honey is fragile. PLS dont touch her anymore!
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The way the tears fall, make my heart in pieces.
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Why would this be a fact?
How can this happen ?
Why must it be you?
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;)
Forever wants to sleep with his GF !
LOL
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There is only 1 month?
30 days;
720 hours,
only.

HUH, only 1 month of reminder?
I dont want it to last long for ONLy a month.


最近,
在学校
好闷阿

Bern 成天往 天主教 跑
Honey 却到处都有
宝贝, 天天飞到 NewYork !
所以,
小鬼阿
咱们去录影吧 :D
I MISS YOU

Monday, August 16, 2010

;)


roses are pink,
sky is blue;
you and me,
stay still here.



I just want a safe place,
that no single tear.



Do me a favour:
Erase the fact,
take away the pain.



keep holding on
cause we'll make it through

just stay strong
cause you know Im here for you.






小鬼,
是时候去录影了 =P
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其实
是受了一点伤
我希望你来安慰我
哪怕只给我一通问候电话也好
我猜不透
你想的是什么
我不知道
这该怎么好
so far away, I wish you were here.
=

Friday, August 6, 2010

its august.

okay :((
facebook is always not a good thing for me.
that's why i dont really like to online.
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status status still status.
Im bored of it.
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I want to be a zombie.
no heart, no feelings, no stress, no you and no me.
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okay,
I miss you.
represent everything.


四周围很安静
宁静得你忘了
那女孩的哭泣
那心碎的旋律
Don't say you love me
Dont tell me forever
unless you really mean it,
cause I might
do something crazy like
believe it.
sometimes,
Am afraid to care to much,
for fear that the other person
does not care at all.
My caring is always silence.
I'm holding on to something
that used to be there
hoping it will come back,
eventhough knowing it won't.
There's always that some special friends
that no matter what they do to you,
you just cant let them go.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

no doubt

好了
我知道我很坏 很坏
我也不是不想更新的阿
时间很不允许
加上没那个心情
我被人INFLUENCE
跟着感觉走了 XP


11/5/2010

原来我的情深
总在你看不见的地方默默表达着
而你
总是没有用心地去明白这一切
深情

ngai ngoi ni ,
is that simple;
is that sincere.
8/7/2010
尝试过所以已经可以了
结果
我终于把一切放下
看开
今天,
我彻彻底底 地放弃这个世界
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明天,我才会回来
*现在,我回来了*
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这里是个花花世界
在豪华的宴会里
每个人因为利益而戴上了面具
换了又换
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那个才是你
我不晓得
你们的华丽面具背后
只有一张再普通不过的 自私脸孔
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而这些人
我只能和他们打交道
你知道么?
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我对你的用心
我对你努力
不是个理所当然
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只因为感觉说
你是个值得交的朋友
现在,
你后悔了,
那又怎样?
以前的我,
可能还会说这没关系
然后又再次深深的被你伤害着
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如今
一切都尽在文字里
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你不配!
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13/7/2010
昨晚,
我现身在童话故事里
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那把声音 很熟悉
那个肩膀 很熟悉
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那件黑色尖领T 很熟悉
那个手心给的温暖 很熟悉
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这一切都很熟悉
但我总是想不起
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我知道那个感觉会是你
但画面出现的 却口是心非 和你格格不入
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在这个恐怖 但 罗曼蒂克 的梦境里
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是你—— 给了我安全感。 *-*
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你教了我 浪漫
却带不走 习惯
他们总是说,
最熟悉的味道
是最难抹去的记忆
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1/8/2010
那一天,
咱们自己回忆 就好
那一天,离开家足足 10 个小时
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到别人的家
耍脾气
吃Mc Flurry
走Jusco
在jusco 38
and 等等
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我们坐在车 的两个多小时
聊着聊着
怎么感觉好像如此的 不切实
从来没妄想过
离开了1年,
原来
那个感觉还在。
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你的背
还是那么温暖
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你的酒窝
我照样很喜欢 =)
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离开的那整年
你教会我要珍惜
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2/8/2010
离开了昨天
今天总是很想念的
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会雨过天晴
我是这样告诉 自己的。
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3/8/2010
回一趟 TGS
怎么全部的眼睛望我这 瞄呀?
很奇怪吗瞄了过后,
stund了一下,
再和我say hello :D
你们很奇怪列
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我知道
我的出现
会让你们无法专心上课
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我知道
我的出现
会打扰了你们的pmp
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所以,
我在放学后
站在 Physics lab 等你们
老师也shocked了一下
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4sc1
出来了
那天,
我收了很多拥抱
我好像回kampung,
自己的地方
在这里,我才是我=)
最初的感动 都在这里
最纯的友谊 也在这里
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亏我来时
还一直忐忑不安
还好
我在大门外
遇见我的 ex-ah tau and ex-senior XP
snr Sze Wei & snr Wai yee
和他们在那瞎聊了15分钟
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我们一班人就去找 寿星婆
我的冷汗
让我自己都佩服
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礼物送了
她给了我一个拥抱
在她耳边 悄悄语
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希望你能听到
我知道
当时我的心跳
早已 飙表
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一切尽在 感觉中
那份礼物
是真诚
完全自己开刀的
我希望你喜欢
生日快乐~
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to the house owner ,
remembered what that had promised.
I will wear that teddy
as long as
you're
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my one and the only
=)
p/s:
life in CBN not that easy ;
people from there ain't that simple.