Wednesday, October 20, 2010

不让你看见的伪装

明明很想哭,卻還在笑。
明明很在乎,卻裝作無所謂。
明明很想留下,卻堅定的說要離開。
明明很痛苦,卻偏偏說自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉,卻說已經忘了。
明明放不下,卻說他是他,我是我
明明捨不得,卻說我已經受夠了。
明明說的是違心的假話,卻說那是自己的真心話。
明明眼淚都快溢出眼眶,卻高昂著頭。
明明已經無法挽回,卻依舊執著
明明知道自己很受傷,卻說你不必覺得欠我的。

明明這樣「偽裝」著很累,卻還得依舊......
為的只是隱藏起自己的脆弱,
即使很難過,
也會裝的無所謂,
只是不願別人看見自己的傷口,
不想讓自己周圍的人擔心,
不想讓別人同情自己,
只想在心底獨自承受,
雖然心疼的難以呼吸,
卻笑著告訴所有人「我沒事的!」 ,
然後靜下來時,
自己便笑話自己,
何必把自己偽裝的那麼堅強?
好像自己可以承受所有的苦難,
這好累......好累......即使是偽裝,
即使很累,
只為了不讓蓄積於眼底的淚水流下。
那是蘊藏在眼底的冰冷,
一旦溫熱便會洶湧,
沖毀我久築的防堤......
只為這一個理由,
已足夠。 ,
偽裝堅強,
只為不讓脆弱有機可乘,
只為可以一個人在晚上走夜路也不害怕.....
.扯開嘴角的微笑並不是那麼容易。
你堅強的背後會有一個聲音:
累不累?可已無路可退。 , 一個人的夜晚,才會最真實吧?!

有時候,我會為自己找一個藉口,讓自己停留;
我想為自己找一個藉口,一個讓自己停下來的藉口…

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

NO MORE FINALS ;)

am like so long din update my bloggie.
lazy and finals always spoil my passion and inspiration.
Im late for lot of things i use to do.

okay, facebook status of mine keep on changing.
Its just because I facebook-ing by my mobile.

Oh. I finished my finals.
Was like HOORAY X)

IM FREE.
NO EXAMS
NO SCHOOL
NO TUITION

JUST OUTING
JUST DATING
JUST BLOGGING
JUST FACEBOOK
JUST TEXTING


After the last paper of chemistry,
whole class were screaming and shouting like we were the candidates of PMR.
9 subjects that only used 9 days of time to finish the exam, took us 3 weeks of time.
OMG!
for the last two subjects,
I slept for 3 hours before biology paper.
and today was chemisrty.
I din sleep for 24 hours and I was like blogging here.

Me with 38-classmates went FULL HOUSE for lunch then to KLCC.
from
ROXY > CONVERSE > MISS WHATEVER > TEDDY TALES >GIRLS > LOVELY LACE >ROMP > ISETAN

We shopped for 2 hours and went home.
freaking damn tired now.
I just reach home around 7.30pm.

Got some new story to post. but not today.
stay tunned!
OH. got to finish up my experiment of chemistry.
Tomorrow continue-ing to school.
its for you alien,
IMISSYOUBADLY.

Friday, September 17, 2010

宝贝 ;)

I spent my so-called-holiday with those i HEART alot














thanks for the hols.
I've ntg more to say.
Just be grateful that i can always count on you guys. ^^
ILOVEYOUALL.
,with all my heart.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

你不知道的事,很多

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎落满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
还悬在你看不见那高空里
多的事 你不知道的事


很多的事情,我没说
我不是不知道,只是没说

很多的事情,我没说
我只是等你来问问我,说给我听

有一件事,是你不知道的事;

我曾为我们的过去流泪,
朋友,我真的很想拨个电话告诉你,
IMISSYOU.

Friday, September 3, 2010

娱百 副主任- Alien♥

一直告诉自己,
上到网路,
别乱乱逛。

嗯,我可以的 ;)

说没事,是假的
想念你,真的假不了。

I miss you. do you sneeze that much these days?
will it be a year again to re-connect?